Friday; April 17
I have spent more time watching and listening to myself over the last few weeks than I have in the past several years combined. In preparing for our online services and classes I have had to edit a lot of audio and video. While I always knew I wasn’t perfect, I have gained a new appreciation for how fallible I am. As I have edited, I have become more aware of my stutters, pauses, mispronunciations and those times when I just don’t make a lot of sense. In all honesty, I will be glad when we get back to being live and in person. As I thought about my own self-critiquing, I got to thinking about the Apostle Paul. Here is a guy that was at the top of his profession, but assessed his imperfection by stating, “ Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?” (Romans 7:24). It appears that the closer he got to God, the further he found himself from being where he hoped to be. Given my recent experiences with self-critique, I could understand if he c